So Very Blessed

Looking back on my life, seeing my present and looking to the future, I know I am so very blessed. I have see my Heavenly Fathers hand leading me and helping me along my path. Giving me just what I need when I need it and blessing me when I try just the tiniest bit harder to do what is right and keep His commandments.

Just a few examples so I don't ever forget. One blessing I feel is unique is being able to love at a young age, despite the lack of love I saw in my home. I believe not many people can say their very first kiss was something meaningful. I have heard countless stories of people's first kiss being with someone they didnt really know or didn't really care about. I was determined to not kiss until 16 and then not just kiss anyone. I believe this was a gift from my Heavenly Father.

Later down the road I made some mistakes and was miserable but I see now that it really was a short period of time. I am grateful I did not spend yrs to learn what I needed to. So I moved away, got away from all my weaknesses and decided to start over. In order to do this I had to have a clean slate. Went through my repentance process but I also swore of boys, well kissing, until my birthday. The new age would bring the new start. This was very healthy for me and I was no longer dependent.

Two weeks after my birthday I met a boy and he was the first person I kissed. We had a rocky road, mostly because of me and my insecurities, but over a yrs time, 3 break ups and much growing and forgiving on both parts, he became my husband. This may not sound like a blessing but it truly is the greatest blessing of my life. Even the way our relationship went shows me Heavenly Father is in my life and giving me exactly what I need. The situation was much like my first love, I believe Heavenly Father did this for me to show me that I can truly be loved. My husband went through alot of rejection from me, I had and still have many insecurities, but he still loved me through them and of course still does.

Next blessing is my girls. They are teaching me love better than anyone else could. Not only them but seeing my husband love me through pregnancies, which of course entails all sorts of craziness. I was talking to an old friend they other day and she said it took her and her husband 7 yrs. get their relationship back after each child (they have two). And here we married 2 1/2 yrs, have two children and were not falling apart. I didnt think that was so unique but I really think it is.

There is definitely no one else more perfect for me than my husband. He seems to always give me exactly what I need to learn and grow and become better. Of course no one is perfect but we have grown so amazingly well together and have learned so much in such a short period of time. I feel like we have learned things people don't learn their whole marriage.

These are the major blessings of my life. The life changing type. But of course there are the everyday things that Heavenly Father does, including giving these realizations. The other major blessing in our life is paying tithing and seeing the blessings that flow because of it. Money has come out of no where sometime. We have received scholarships that we didnt even know existed. And so many other times and ways we have been blessed.

I know that all I/we need to do is try our best. No one will be perfect but I know Heavenly Father knows us and our hearts and as we strive to do better, we will be blessed immensely. I know that getting married in the temple has blessed my marriage. I know the atonement is real and I can and I am forgiven for my weaknesses and continue to learn and grow no matter what. I know the only person who ever wants us to beat ourselves up over doing something wrong is the adversary. I know I am loved more than I could ever understand but as I try to do what is right I see that love a little bit more.

Life is Good! It certainly has its many challenges but I know in the end it will all just be a small moment. Eternal perspective is imperative to get through the challenges.

May we never forget who gives us the life we have!